It turns out that I underestimated the unrelenting power of my illness. Today marks the one week anniversary of infection, and the nation known as Stomach is slowly starting to tally the casualties and gain an understanding of the scope of destruction. The rebuilding process will take dedication, sacrifice, and unquestionable patriotism, but I’m sure that the citizens are willing to do what it takes to see the glorious nation regain its seat of power. It’s been rumored that the same plague is ravaging distant lands and is slowly spreading through the outer realms of the universe.
Restaurants that serve both sushi and spaghetti ought to be passed over without second glance.
I’m not one to put stock into fate; however, I am aware of the balance that the universe seems to maintain. The idea behind logical balance is simple; flip a coin 1,000 times and it’s very likely that the number of heads will be very close to the number of tales. Why is this? The odds are that odds are always accurate. It may take a million flips of a coin, but eventually the flipper will have a similar number of heads and tales. Some well wishers use this idea to console a person who is having a bad time; “just hold on, things will get better.” Unfortunately, the odds of the universe can’t be applied to an event that is largely dependent on human perception. A certain number of “bad days” does not indicate that an equal number of “good days” are coming, because “good” and “bad” are defined by previous experiences. Winning the multimillion dollar lottery everyday for a week may make for a “good day,” but winning $5 from a scratch-off on the 8th day may make for a “bad day,” even though this would normally be an awesome event. A depressing time is a time where the bar for “good” is raised too high. Fortunately, this same idea also applies to the opposite extreme.
I laid in bed for two days, shivering, unable to eat, and nursing a massive caffeine headache. The fetid cocoon eventually dissolved, and cautiously emerged from the state of delirium. I remember the first journey outdoors and the indescribable pizza that followed. The sweetness of my freedom was directly proportionate to the size and weight of my broken shackles. I’m fortunate in the fact that my life is relatively steady. There aren’t very many terrible surprises, and there’s stability in my work and social lives. Sometimes I forget this; I complain about things that most would find insignificant, and I take for granted all of the amazing things and people that I have the privilege of dealing with daily. It’s only after those rare times of hardship or bodily warfare that I realize that I’m still free to gaze upon the stars, unfettered by serious physical ailments, or other circumstances that would prevent me from chasing any dream I choose. I hated being sick, but that’s given me passion for being well and taking advantage of it. I can’t even fathom what it would be like to face true hardship. I’m oblivious to the goings ons of the Easter celebration, but there was a news story about a woman who brought together a group of Harlem kids to form a choir. She wanted them to feel the joy that music could bring and understand that there are indeed ways to bring joy to lives that seem irreparably broken. Here I am, reflecting on a two-day stomach bug and how sweet it tastes to be free from its torment, and other people in the world are simply trying to understand what it feels like to be free from torment.
Roger Ebert linked to this video last week, and I’m blow away every time I watch it. Regardless of situation, it’s always nice to be reminded of the beauty at life’s core.




